Well, I have joined the blogging community...How I wish I had marvelous adventures upon which to report, like so many of my fellow CSBSJU '09 graduates...Alas, I am stuck in suburbia, wondering what to do next.
Don't get me wrong. It's nice to be home, it's semi-nice to be back at Byerly's...But I really want to do something different with my life. I mean, I'm looking forward to a bunch of small fun events that are in the near future (HP6 midnight show, Public Enemies, Ren Fest starts soon...), but I would love to start a new chapter in my life. As of now, that chapter is unseen.
Grad school? Someday. Where? No idea.
Job? Hopefully. Where? No idea. Grand Portage? For 6 months? By myself? Really? Can I do it? Do I want to? I'm just not as willing to uproot myself and let the wind take me through some open door of opportunity as I need to be, I guess. Dwight Pitcaithley would be disappointed. Don't tell him.
Europe seems like it was forever ago. I remember going, but I don't feel as if I actually went. Does that make sense? I loved it so much, but I was ready to come home, as well. Now, I'm wishing we were still there, in some capacity or another. I think it's because it was three weeks of not working and spending money like crazy, while traveling around to amazing places and seeing things in person that I had only ever heard about or read about or seen via some form of media. It was an amazing trip. I felt more changed right when we got back...Now I feel like the same old Leah.
I need something different to keep me going. I was singing at Church, but that might not be the case anymore...(Budget cuts mean no pianist...no pianist means no singer, apparently.) I want to do Cross Community Players, but they only have two productions a year. We'll see how that one goes.
Oh well. For now, I'm looking forward to those little things, since they are what's getting me through right now. Hopefully someday soon, something will fall into place and things will make more sense and give me a little bit of purpose.
Don't you worry a bit about feeling stagnant. I'm feeling stuck in a rut too. I think it comes with the whole "I've only known school and now I've just graduated and don't know what to do with my time" syndrome.
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